15 Oct 1977 Cont. (A-SEX)

15 October 1977 Continued

At least there will be no real involvement and that is a secure feeing for me. Maybe that’s a sad thought but I am almost afraid/ uneasy about sexual relationships. Everyone wants to do it etc and I am slower, not always into it. I don’t like obligations at all and I try to not hold others to them. Sex is weird. It is a piercing thing, it goes way inside, it exposes, it might be theatrical, too revealing yet not, so point blank. Sure it can be fun while it is happening but I don’t have a lot of cherishing memories around it. It seems unnecessary when I look back (or look forward to another adventure), even if it is a hot and heavy affair this is the way things are for me; I realize it is not the general conception of sex for our liberated youth of today. This kind of alienation is touched upon by Punk too.

Women, we get entered. We don’t have divine contact. The partner does. And he’s watched a ton of movie made by men who also don’t have roadmaps to female orgasm. There’s more to be said on this but most of it I write in the 1990’s. 

I just visited my mother for her 85th birthday. She gave me some photographs I have looked at for a lifetime.
She was born in 1929 and often said that she brought in The Great Depression. They starved. Here she is with her brother, must be around 1935 or so. Eventually they were sent to a nutrition camp by the US Government, they were so thin.
But don’t they look great? My Uncle Wiley at such a small age had a sense of style. And they both still live and are doing well, healthy.

I just visited my mother for her 85th birthday. She gave me some photographs I have looked at for a lifetime.

She was born in 1929 and often said that she brought in The Great Depression. They starved. Here she is with her brother, must be around 1935 or so. Eventually they were sent to a nutrition camp by the US Government, they were so thin.

But don’t they look great? My Uncle Wiley at such a small age had a sense of style. And they both still live and are doing well, healthy.